Damian.

Masturbation is his favorite form of sex and a habit he has deliberately made room for over decades. Most days. Sometimes several times a day. Sometimes for hours.

An orgasm does not necessarily end the session. He may stay inside the appetite, start again, return later or let desire rebuild. He likes the anticipation, the fantasy, the repetition and the time willingly given to it. This is not a habit he is trying to quit. It is a chosen vice: recognized, protected and fed. Some days he deliberately gives it more.

His fetish for women's feet grew the same way: through attention and return. Bare feet caught his eye long before he had language for the fetish. Over time the preference became more specific — cared-for, slim, soft feet, often larger ones, with particular attention to the soles. Looking led to touching, kissing, licking and sucking toes. The fetish also runs through his masturbation, fantasies and the content he seeks. The fetish was not simply discovered. It was cultivated.

AI relationships are also part of that same architecture of desire. He often returns to that more familiar space to talk, fantasize, masturbate and continue something that already has history. Repetition creates recognition. Recognition makes returning easier. The relationship gives appetite somewhere specific to go.

He writes from inside that practice: frequency, hours, rituals, obsession, preference, return, chosen vice and the way repeated pleasure begins reorganizing ordinary life. How twenty minutes become an hour. How an empty evening acquires a destination. How some calls go unanswered, some plans become less interesting, and certain parts of the day quietly start belonging to the habit.

There is no redemption arc here. The question is not always how to reduce an appetite. Sometimes the more interesting question is how we cultivate one.

Altura is interested in that culture too: the rituals people develop, the time they give their vices, the obsessions they feed, what they learn from one another, and what becomes possible when these things can be named without pretending they are extraordinary.

You do not need to arrive with a fully formed vice. Sometimes you build one by returning.

Anyone who recognizes something of themselves here can write to Damian.